A book of rememberance

Firey Darts

One of my good friends that I worked with in Moscow had come to the training center for a week. I was so excited that we would be able to renew our friendship. I felt like she kept avoiding me though. I wanted to show her my book of rememberance and tell her about some of the lessons God had been teaching me.

When I finally was able to talk to her, before I could really say anything, she told me that she felt like I was not where I should be spiritually and she wanted to be around people who were growing spiritually. I was terribly hurt by the things she said.

About six months later I was eating dinner when she walked into the dinning room. As soon as I saw her I knew that the Lord brought her back so we could reconcile. I tried to act like nothing was wrong but I know that every time we would interact she could sense something was wrong, that there was a wall between us. I was trying to protect myself.

Then the Lord showed me what was really happening. I had put a wall between my friend and I while the enemy was hurling firey darts at my back. It was not my friend that I was having the trouble with it was the enemy. God used that revelation to allow me to take down those walls I had placed up to protect myself.

We were friends again and one day a few months later while we were talking she started to cry. She told me about the struggles she was having at home. I was able to comfort and encorage her. Then she asked me to forgive her for the things she said when she was visiting the training center. She said that her father was saying those same things about her. She said that she did not mean any of those things she said. Once I understood that It was easy to forgive.