Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.
~John 12:24
Seeds
I had made up my mind that I would not respond to my step-father in anger any more. Within a few hours I did it again. I was frustrated with myself. I went out and sat in the field behind my house. I asked the Lord, "Why can't I just die to myself?"
As I cried out to the Lord, He reminded me that while it is true that a seed must die before it can bear fruit, death does not happen all at once. It happens a little each day. He showed me that each day I face hundreds of little choices. Every time I choose to do right I die a little more to myself.